I really started actually really writing on this blog when I was newly struggling in my treatment for rampant abuse of and addiction to my prescription painkillers, Fentanyl and Vicodin at the time of detox, along with whatever other opiate based goodie I could score. I come by the painkillers honestly enough having severe rheumatoid arthritis and fibromyalgia, but I never took them as prescribed.. I always wanted more. In March of 2013, my life was in a very bad downward spiral and I went to the crisis center feeling suicidal and ended up in detox. Since then I have been in treatment and my pain and addiction are manage by a combination of treatments including Suboxone.

Another thing that has helped me greatly is just writing about it here. Writing really got jump started when I challenged myself to do 90 posts in 90 days, (to borrow a 12 step suggestion). I never actually counted if I achieved that exactly but I know it got me writing regularly and has also introduced me to some great people here on WordPress along the way. I probably won’t do another long term commitment challenge like that again, maybe a 7 in 7 or something, but I write often, and I do my best to respond to any readers.

So come along, read about my crazy dysfunctional behavior as a dual diagnosis addict/mental patient who also happens to have severe physical limitations and a husband and 2 children ages, 19 and 9. Peek in at my daily life! Feel better about your own brand of crazy!


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    • I’ve been averaging about 4-5 posts a week. At first I was really hard on myself for not doing EVERY SINGLE DAY but I relaxed somewhat. I have too many things in my life that I am so very hard on myself and I don’t want to end up hating WordPress or blogging in general because it has been an amazing tool in my recovery.

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      • That’s why I’m kind of afraid to commit to those “X number of posts per day” kind of things. You don’t ‘want to let something you enjoy turn into something you resent!

        Good on you for realizing you don’t absolutely HAVE to do it every day. That’s a hard thing to realize, I think.



  1. My son died of a heroin overdose. He started with prescription pain meds.
    Please let me know if you agree with the message of this independent film project about people like you, Matt, and me:

    Project link: https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/1928235665/written-off-the-short-sad-beautiful-life-of-matt-e

    Here is a Huffington Post article on the film project named “Addiction and Death: Who wants to talk about it?” : http://huff.to/1JaUb9y

    Here is the FB page on the project: https://www.facebook.com/mattsjournals

    If you agree, please consider linking this project on your blog. We need our voices heard. America seems to think we are all worthless losers, but I firmly disagree. (By the way, hope you can find some relief for your pain!)

    Thank you, Jane Funk


    • Thanks for that. It was eye opening and so, so true. One of the reasons why I love WordPress is because it has given me a community. And even though I’ve been in treatment over a year now, many people in the program wouldn’t even consider me sober as I manage my pain and my addiction with Suboxone. Community is important. Let’s support each other.

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  2. Hello Maria,

    I happened to see you visited my recovery blog. Welcome to The Dual Diagnosed Family . . .right? I to live life in recovery from gambling and alcohol addictions, and live with mental/emotional health challenges. I have been writing and journaling for many years. And it is how my current book came to be. I hope you’ll stop by again. Very nice to meet you! 🙂

    Author, Catherine Townsend-Lyon XO


  3. I found you through a comment you made on my blog. It’s bad enough having RA, but then to have addiction problems as a result, is just adding insult to injury. Good luck on your journey. You have amazing determination.


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